the only way to have a friend is to be one...
for the most part, my whole life has been spent by myself. even when i was amongst people, i felt apart. this of course happened especially in middle school, where i feel many people went through a stage like this - but even in early childhood, all the way until late highschool, i felt alone. that's not to say that it was a bad thing - in fact, there are times when i would much rather do something by myself than be accompanied. and any aloneness is probably due to my own method of pushing people away instead of drawing them closer. there are a few people who have gotten through to me, and will stick with me forever. there are so many phases i've gone through involving friends - sometimes as a result of moving, of growing apart; some were lost to other groups or interests; and some weren't really friends at all.
home at last · i recall when i was small